The ”DECISION ” . 

For a moment she felt weak in the knees when she had to decide what was good for her in that situation . There was no doubt he loved her yet there was something overpowering about him around ,which was not letting her breathe freely …. there was something gravely missing in their relationship . She was literally begging him for his affection and little attention .What was bothering her for so long ? Why was she feeling suffocated ? Nikita could no more adjust and compromise with Yudi’s uncaring nature .. his taking her for granted every single time !!
She had everything .. a successful career as a nature photographer , Beauty , Intelligence , her friends who never let her down and a loving family somewhere settled in the suburbs . Yet she felt unwanted by him and that empty feeling was killing her insides. More difficult because he always ran away from confrontation and when he did argue .. he thought he was always right . She was fed up of being wronged all the time .He didn’t call on her for days nor came back “home ” ( the apartment they lived in together for the last 3 years ) several times and she went crazy calling up his friends and acquaintances asking about his whereabouts and waiting on him endlessly ..
This morning however after spending many sleepless nights pondering on the future of their relationship she tried to strike a conversation with Yudi and talk things over . Like always she made his favourite filter coffee and with the two steaming cups in hand strolled towards the cozy balcony where they ( when things didn’t turn sour )have spent numerous evenings gazing into each other’s eyes under the sky full of twinkling stars .. only to find him screaming on the phone. He was yelling at his mother regarding his sister Tara’s marriage and also abusing the groom’s family with quite unacceptable filthy connotations .

Still holding  the two cups of coffee in her hands all this while Nikita stood there listening and she had an amusingly funny feeling, a realisation  .. how could she have at the first place fallen for a guy who had no regard for anyone but himself .. he who always showed least respect for women.
When he hung up on his mother , Nikita already had made her ” DECISION ” !!

She managed to tell him .. It’s over between them and walked away with an overwhelming sense of freedom and self respect .

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  1. arupa barua says:

    Gone thru Sombre dwelling and other poems. Been there with you in your journey, in spirit.
    Just finished reading your first story. It as usual portrays the realities most of us face in our lives. Presented in a stnning style of your own…. real ,raw , uncut ,well told in a straight way.
    It has speed , a bit in access. Slow down and rebuild with a touch of artistry, if you feel like.
    Its just a little tip from one writer to another. Please dont mind my taking the prevy for being there for four decades. Its a learning process. You can always make it finer. I am still learning.
    You write very well my dear. You are a natural. The first story is a winner no doubt. Just there is room for perfection always.
    In poetry you have already mastered the Art. I am very happy that you have taken up short story too. Go ahead. The sky is the limit. Blessins and Love umbound and congratulations.
    Welcome to the mesmerizing, challenging and intriguing world of Short stories…💖
    Maa

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    1. Thanks Maa ! Your wonderful words of appreciation means a lot to me . And thanks for sharing your thoughts on how I can make it better 👍🏻 love ❤

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  2. I loved reading it. ☺

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    1. Thanks much Shreya for reading my first story ❤️😍😊

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      1. Will love to read more. ☺

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      2. Yep will keep you posted dear 😊 more from you too 👍🏻

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  3. wildassam says:

    Love to go through the ‘Decision’ to freedom.Will go through others too. Big love and wishes from an unknown uncle.

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    1. Thank you so much for the love and appreciation , Uncle .And thanks for stopping by to read my thoughts ! I hope you find my blog interesting 😊

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  4. Well I’ve definitely been there… That shit hurts because you really don’t want to leave but you have to go so you can find a love that feels whole. Or to just cleanse your self of that know were relationship…

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    1. Sorry about your experience ,but my friend these things heal with time and make us stronger human beings . Good Luck 👍🏻

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      1. I know I know! And it’s ok you don’t have to be sorry for me… It is what it is… Thank you and I hope you have a blessed one.

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      2. Yep we all have to move on from that point in life 👍🏻😊

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      3. Absolutely! Your the greatest thanx!😘

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